40 days until 40 #12
Balancing social and solitude
Fear of abandonment vs guaranteeing safety. This is an internal tussle that I still try to know and get right.
I spent vast swathes of my childhood alone and without the attuned attention one needs to develop healthy social skills. I had friends, I would spend time with other people but I was clueless and I now know I wasn’t really ‘connected’.