Our natural state is peaceful and playful When we aren’t playful and calm it’s because we are fettered by stress or self-consciousness or some such. Something like lists, obligations, tasks, things that make up a life. This is not to say these things are not important. Some of them are…

Balancing social and solitude Fear of abandonment vs guaranteeing safety. This is an internal tussle that I still try to know and get right. I spent vast swathes of my childhood alone and without the attuned attention one needs to develop healthy social skills. …

Everything is changeable. Sometimes that’s exciting. Sometimes that’s neither here nor there. Sometimes it’s terrifying. It’s frustrating when the same circumstances elicit different sensations and outcomes. Riding out terror is destabilising and uncomfortable. Makes me question all the things. I think I trust I can get back to enjoying the…

We have no other purpose than to be in the world. We are creatures evolved over thousands of years for no other purpose than to be a part of the world. Our organisms are just in the business of nourishment, pleasure, survival; our consciousness is what creates problems, that sees…

No matter how hard the lesson, I will still need reminding of it. Learning profound emotional/relational/life lessons usually comes with turbulence and difficulty. The pain can be like no other, the suffering deeper than anything experienced before. …

I love to imagine the younger lives of older couples This is definitely a habit I’ve developed in recent years distinct from the common habit of people making up stories for people they see in the street, or appreciating that everyone has a past you don’t know about. In a…

We cry when something is beautiful Tears don’t just have to be about sadness. There are all sorts of metaphors people come up with to explain tears, I won’t go into the scientific ones, this is a short article for reflections about life as I approach the halfway point. Tears…

I like to fantasise about how I’m going to spend money I don’t have. Every now and then, I will read the Saturday supplement magazine from the Financial Times — How to Spend It. A luxury goods publication essentially. I think maybe it’s a bit of a guilty pleasure? Or…