Especially when they get in the way of potential plans with me.
Someone who is a part of a group that gets together every six weeks announced they will not be able to attend next time because they are doing airport taxi/duty (taking someone to the airport approx three hours away) for a family member.
I noticed my immediate reaction and was a bit shocked, almost appalled, then, not surprised.
I spent a life being told/shown no one will do those things for me, so I have presumably developed a bitterness based in jealousy and envy, that makes me scoff and kind of roll my eyes when someone says they can’t do ‘x’ because they’re doing ‘y’ with/for so-and-so.
Sounds a pretty distasteful personality trait huh?
What I’m learning is these parts of me didn’t come from a desire to be distasteful. Flynn Skidmore will talk about how every action or behaviour is born out of a desire for love, warmth and belonging. The physical response when I hear someone is going to inconvenience themselves to collect a friend or family member from the airport that’s three or four hours away is akin to disgust — curled lip, nausea — but at them? or me? or something else?
How is scoffing a bid for love, warmth or belonging?
