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Therapist returns to therapy
Holy fucking shit, what a session!
I started off talking about the dream I had last night because as I was journalling I’d asked for a dream to take to therapy.
Unbelievably I had a dream and remembered it!
My therapist believes every part of the dream is an element of us (as do I, inspired by Jung) but they don’t work with dreams in therapy all that much.
I described the dream:
An old friend from an old group of friends was at a party or gathering and we sort of awkwardly caught up, then as my current friends arrived the old friend said something like “are we going to talk about the things you say about her (me) when she’s not here?”
It made me think about which parts of me are saying what about me behind my back and my therapist had a similar thought but somehow we moved on quite quickly to talking about the grief that was around.
Surrounded by grief
Some friends adopted a kitten at the end of last year that had gotten unwell recently, he died the day before the session. I cried more at this than I would have predicted. I tied it to the anticipatory grief I feel for the foster cat at my own house that has ‘adopted’ me and been with me throughout the last tumultuous year.
Today was the third day of my period which I mentioned to illustrate the unusual-ness of my increased sensitivity yesterday because I would anticipate that kind of feeling with the day before bleeding starts.
Not a fan of menstruation
I’m not a fan of bleeding every month — the pain, the sensation, the smell, the inconvenience.
I described my long-held alternative approach “If I were in charge of the female reproductive system, I would make it so that an egg is only released once there’s been a consistent supply of semen over a period of time. That would demonstrate this is a situation where a baby could be born into a stable environment and was safe as opposed to the neglect and abandonment that we have in the current system. This would also remove the need to endure the regular pain and suffering of tumultuous hormonal cycles”
