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Therapist returns to therapy — session 11
When you talk about someone in therapy sometimes you get a guilty conscience. You kind of feel disloyal. It’s all true and factual from my perspective. I accept there would be other perspectives but this is my therapy and I’m trying not to censor myself.
What’s the medicine?
This session focused heavily on the new romantic and sexual relationship I was exploring so for privacy reasons I won’t go into too many details of the discussion nor the other person.
My therapist asked: What are you getting from this? What’s been happening in terms of your development (in the new relationship)?
Having been single so long, dating on and off, and seldomly having any kind of sexual activity with another human, there’s a lot to notice, evaluate and check in with.
Is this an okay relationship for me to be in?
Is this an okay human for me to be giving my energy and sexuality to?
Largely the answer is yes. Though there is an element of doubt, there are now the different levels of experience (with him) which means different levels of knowing and I can tell the difference between what is an easy ‘yes, let’s continue’ and ‘um, I’m not sure about this’.
