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Not so much a summary as a blog for each week.
I thought this would be an interesting record for me as I move through this latest chapter of therapy, plus an insightful look for curious outsiders.
This first month I will summarise and discuss general themes. Future sessions will be stand-alone articles discussing things in further, wider detail.
The format of the rest of this article will have a heading for which number session it is, sub-headings for the theme of the area of discussion, then non-bullet-pointed bullet-points (bear with me!) of prose. This is because my process is quite scattered and I will go from one subject to the next; I don’t want to clog up this article (or any future ones) with superfluous narrative which could detract from my point or just bore you!
The assessment process is detailed here.
First ‘proper’ session
A little disjointed, very ‘storytelling’ (by me, I’m a ‘head’ person and love words) though my therapist offered reflections and insights I hadn’t got to myself. Already! There is new stuff happening!
Two parts (amongst many) in me
There are two parts of me; the one that wants contact and the one that does not. I was tempted to look at them as my autistic and ADHD parts, but that doesn’t feel right.
There’s an autistic part of me that definitely wants contact and is scared of being misunderstood or picked on, and there’s an ADHD part of me that is very enthusiastic and outgoing but that part also wants rest and separation.
I think it’s better to consider them as:
- Parts that want contact
- Parts that don’t
My therapist also asked how my (menstrual) cycle affects my desire for contact? I had been monitoring my cycle in regards to my energetic capacity for social and work engagement rather than do I actually want to have contact.
It’s a subtle difference in awareness though one I think that will prove to be very important.
